what’s the frickin’ difference anyway?

March 16, 2009 at 4:35 pm (Uncategorized)

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A favourite thought… not so much, yet rather frequent:

…the thought that life is to be lived between 20 and 30  and after that one IS to settle down and be boring and stagnated. And if one doesn’t calm down there is something profoundly wrong in one’s way of having relationships, in one’s capacity to live here and now and being content; one is simply immature.

So as I dance in the age of 27, I feel the pressure, the opinions, that I should now just keep walkig, head down, do my share and pay my taxes and not be a burden, not stick out, stop expanding. Where is that frickin’  lifeless though coming from??!?!!? It comes from myself, yet it doesn’t originate from me. So whom am I to fight in this battle of not agreeing to settle down and stagnate? Myself? Any other suggestions?

Or am I rather to grasp hold of healing and adventure and actively not care what people make out of my behaviour. To be whole and holy and still hulivili…. is that allowed?? When I looked at the adults around me growing up, I didn’t see life. (Perhaps it was there anyway) Jesus promise me life to the fll, more life I can ever dream of or contain. And I want that. Liveliness. And maturity and vastness and hulivility. I love spending time with close friends my age or a few years my senior, to see them grow freely and mature. Their lives whisper it is possible not to be strangled and conform.

WHY is stagnation’s call still dominating me so?

5 Comments

  1. Jens-Peter said,

    March 19, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Keep on fighting it, sister! There are more people doing the same.

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  2. Anna said,

    March 21, 2009 at 4:48 pm

    thanks bro! You’re definitely one of the ones I’m thinking of and mentioning above!

    <3

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  3. Sebastian-Gunnar said,

    March 27, 2009 at 12:11 am

    Security?

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  4. Anna said,

    March 27, 2009 at 11:52 am

    …och förutsägbarhet

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  5. lorna (see-through faith) said,

    April 16, 2009 at 3:51 pm

    one IS to settle down and be boring and stagnated.

    what a terrible thought. I did settle down and marry at 28, had a baby at 30 and another at 32 … yes I am that old … but stagnation! Good grief that’s not our calling as Christians. Glad you shot that parrot Anna :)

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