Floating

 

One lovely thing and one disturbing.

Got back from kayaking yesterday. With referals to my previous post on kayaking (aug 2007), the floating makes me think of grace. Only this time, I was overwhelmed by the sense of Jesus being my strength and guide. Sitting in the doubble kayak, feeling the strength and steering of the kayaker behind me, I felt I could go on forever. For I did not need to rely on my own strength. The notion that someone else’s strength would suffice made all the difference and made my strength come forth and put into use with gladness. I was physically reminded of the presence of Jesus in a very concrete way. Now as I am back, I keep bringing that sense of God’s strength and steering back to mind and body, and the notion makes me relax. He is good. Thank you to my kayak buddy for enabling me to have this experience, and to the one who gave me her seat.

My big sis refers to doubble kayaking as a well-functioning marriage, with the woman deciding the pace and the husband steering. I loved that parable too, and kayaking away I could feel what she meant. Perhaps she’ll write something about that as she dances on the keyboard…

I have met a fascinating man who really disturbs me. His name is Shane Claiborne and he talks about descipleship and really living the life of a Christian. As I read his book and as he shares his life and frustration and love and fun, I know I can only end up doing either of two things: 1) Ignore him, and Jesus, or, 2) pour out my life and begin to live – to lose myself compleatly and possibly win Life.

Pic: LK. Alternative ways of keeping dry.

Sharing the Story

 

I love this song by Sara Groves. Redemption and grace. It comes in funny and strange ways in our lives. And I love the line “and this is grace: an invitation to be beautiful”. God redeems me into His beauty. Into His ezer kenegdo. Sustainer of Life, in relationships, the Body and the world. I’m only getting glimpses of what it might be like. It is so vast – and so detailed! I want to be part of what God’s doing in other people’s lives. To add beauty to the Story!

 ”This is grace – an invitation!” That’s how I want my life and my yes to God to be. Not a mere “I have to” but a yes to the invitation – the out stretched hand, the voice that says “come!”. To be irreplacable. I always hated wearing work clothes in the hospital, even the mere thought have made me cry. Just the thought and feel of being anonymous, a part of the system, a part easily replaced. Stripped of self. God invites ME (and YOU!!) because I’m me.  

“It comes in loving communities” – I feel I have such good eväät to head out into the world with, having been in a loving community! I feel safe going for I know I’ve been loved and safe and loaded with the wisdom of other’s.  Community is tricky, and the need for constant redemption evident – but there’s nothing for which I would trade it.